Money over Friendship!!!

At times in life, you will meet people along the way and at some point you thought you have found your bestfriend. A friend that you feel connected to and someone that you will really miss if you don't see them more then a week. There were certain stages in life that thoughts such as having a partner was not even important as long as you friend will be with you forever!!!

Since 2 years ago i thought i was lucky enough that i have found my bestfriend. I don't use to have many close friends before this. I was actually suprised that friends can actually be this close, a friendship nearly as close as a family member and the idea that it will never be broken.

There was certain issue that have occur that caused our friendship to be drifted away in these twoyears but this is not the issue. So there was this day that this particular friend told me that he needs some financial help and said that he will return me the money in a month.

And so after a month, he only returned me partial of the money and told me while reassuring me that he will return the rest soon. Even after now, which is already a year pass by and he still has not return me my money.

That is not what get me really angry. I was actually happy that he took the effort to meet me two weeks ago and said he will return my money in a few days. But now he don't even reply my messages and even answer my calls. I am really angry because even if he can;t pay me now, he could at least reply saying that he could pay me in installment. So what now? Is he trying ignore me so he can just get away with it. What makes me more angry is he still can afford to buy new branded stuff and eat at fine dining but don;t even bother to pay me back. Is my friendship valueless? Why is he choosing my friendship over the money? WHY WHY WHY? Plus is not a small ammount. Its a sum and i am currently nearly reaching 0 in my bank account. I can't sleep and i can;t let this issue go. : (

A day with colours

I came into realization that happiness can be obtained in many forms. Felt contented on the end of the day that i decided to blog to remember this particular day of my life. Hopefully there is more happy days coming ahead.

It finally strike to me that we can find our own happiness. We should not just sit there and start complaining about why are we unhappy about but instead do something to make things change. My decision in taking up butter cream decorating class for fun has certainly gave me much more fulfillment and contentment in my life.

I made a beautiful dolly today and gave it to one of my classmate. The gratefulness she has in her eyes is certainly something to remember. My classmate in my desktop publishing class also shown me gratitude and i guess i have earned his friendship. Its really great having to have a friend in computer class as i am really bad with technology equipment. I guess i have earned his friendship by helping him out and giving him guidance in presenting our group project. Talking about group project, i am amazed with the end result and the presentation of our group.

We were so good that i can hear people whispering telling their mates that our slides and content was rich in ideas. The presentation has definitely taken everyone's attention and it even got a lazy sleepy boy behind the back of the class to be interested in what we have to say. It ended up with a good round applause from the audience and the lecturer didn't even have any question to ask as all the information needed was there. I definitely had created an impact on my fellow classmates in my elective class that i don't even know.

Not long after the ex-so called bf called. Someone who i can't really say its my bf as i came into realization that i have never had the feeling of love towards him. He met me, went for a drink. It was silent as it has always be. Perhaps we just have nothing much to talk about. So i asked him "why did he suddenly want to meet me"?. I actually already figure the answer out but i just still want to ask him. He's always still messaging me after the day we broke up. NO! IS not because he misses me, but he is always asking issue like whether i am free for the day or not. It was obvious, he just wanted to land on my fake burberry bed linens. Things got really obvious when he keeps repeating himself if he can come to my house like a squeaking duck!! Actually thought that i can still form some sort of acquaintance with him but he's just too evil.

More to share but i would stop here for today. : )